Friendship is and always will be more important to me than my ability to breath. That's right; I value friendship more than my life. I put a lot of effort into my friendships to ensure that they can last a lifetime. For me, a good friendship is the product of mutual respect and communication; you just can't have a stable relationship without them. I pride myself in being a very understanding individual; I like to think that I emanate acceptance through my personality and actions. Nothing wounds me more deeply than when I realize that I have failed and see a friendship that I value start to deteriorate as a result. Make no mistake, I'm well aware that some friendships evolve into something more, but at the heart of every relationship is a friendship. And regardless of what happens, I will do everything in my power to make sure that that friendship survives. That being said, when you lose mutual respect or communication, you will lose that friendship; unless, of course, those two elements can be restored.
I'm not much of a talker; unless I see an opportunity to get a laugh or say something witty, I'm usually listening. I'm a listener. I may not like everything I hear, but I listen very well. I thrive on gathering input like Johnny number 5. I'm intrigued by what people have to say; it helps me get to know who they are and helps me become a better friend to that person. I hope that people recognize that trait and feel comfortable enough to come to me with anything; even if it is something that may disappoint or even hurt me. I need this information to be a better friend and to adjust my level of friendship according to the needs of that person. I realize that mistakes will be made and feelings will be hurt, but without mutual respect and communication there's no way to salvage a completely viable friendship. I know I'm not perfect (I'm well aware of it in fact) and I realize that I may fail at being a friend sometimes, but I ask that my friends not shut me out but rather communicate their concerns to me so that I may learn. If I have ever given any of my friends a reason not to trust me or to feel that they cannot approach me with a necessary change to our relationship, then I am truly sorry for failing you. Know that I value every one of you more than you can possibly comprehend and the thought of losing any of you breaks my heart. And when it comes to friendships, I would rather hear bad news than no news at all. I love all your faces and hope that I can be the friend that you all deserve. *smooches*
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